Lying Behind The Fat

I finally hit rock bottom at the end of February. Even my fat clothes stopped fitting around my ever increasing fat belly. I could no longer hide behind the easy lie "It's water retention from PMS". That little lie used to work when it was used one week a month but now I was using that precious gem every damn day. So there I was, sobbing in my closet, desperately searching for any skirt or pants that had an elastic waist because none of my other clothes would button or zip up over my fat tummy. I finally did find a pair of pants that I could fit into but then came the task of finding a shirt that would cover up my extended tummy. No luck in that department but I did find a black sweater which made my tummy look smaller - from the front. From the side I looked like I was six months pregnant and the tears poured out again as I wondered "how in the hell did I get to this point?"